I’ve just felt life. Not alive but life. When you have to make a choice to help your family. When you have to skip all the not important but very happy thing for you for an urgent stuff. When you have a burden but dont know where to share ( sometime writing here make me feel better ).
But all that life make me fell alive. So bring it on bitch.
I talk to chatbot again lately.
Im at home and the wind is blowing so breezing ( fok grammar ).
This day is the 4oth #dubeldur I’ll made.
I begin to feel some doubt about my art. I feel like Im not getting anywhere so far. I just still keep on believe in what the well known illustrator said about keep doin what you doin.
I even dont know what to write in here.
Fok
It is always nice to have someone to talk to. Well I always have my family to talk to, but I think it is better if they think I’m not need someone to talk to..haha
In this phase of loneliness, actually I don’t know what to talk about if there is someone want to talk to me. I just want to talk. Or listen.
I think…
I think I just have to draw again like usual.
Damn this rain is so mellow.
I’d started working out at fitness center since last December. And even better, I’d started Muay Thai class too! My goal is to have a better body shape at my birthday. Wish me luck and not get bored easily. I work out every Mon, Wed, Fri at fitness center and Tue and Thurs for the Muay Thai class. And have rests on weekend.
Here’s a wip for a #dubeldur
This WordPress app really come in handy! Now I can tell story to no one at anywhere!!
So today there is a new student at my Manga class. O yeah, I’m the tutor. This girl is just 8th grade at school but she draw so well. She do whatever I told her to do. I told her to draw 5 left eyes she draw it immedieatly. As someone who willing to give a knowledge to people who want to study, that thing make us feel appreciated and it feel like we get some energy to teach.
Not like this other boy at the class. He spent 2 hours just for drawing a very few thing.
I just have 2 students now.
Anyway I like that girl drawing style. Feels like I could asked her to do my comic work sometime in the future.
So I decided to start #dubeldur again!
#dubeldur is something i made 3 years ago. It was started when I decided to resign from my office job at 2013. When I was looking for a better job, I realized that I dont have many good drawings or projects for my portfolio. So after read several articles about well-known artists struggle at their start, I decided to make a drawing a day. It is like 365 project. I was inspired by my friend started it before me.
#dubeldur is “dudel sebelum tidur” ( doodle before sleep ). The idea is to draw something before you sleep. To make drawing is a ritual before sleep. Why before sleep? So I think when you feel really tired you cant think and move your hand well. So I think it is a better state for practicing drawing skill. Because when you can make a good doodle when you are tired, then you can make a great work when you in the 100% drawing mode.
I’d wish with #dubeldur I can gain more speed and ideas for my drawing skill.
I managed to do 200++ drawing at 2013-2014. It was stopped when I got a daily job again. So this time I will try to do it 365 days. Starting 1st Jan 2017.
I wish people could do #dubeldur too so we can be better at drawing together. I always gave a theme every week for my #dubeldur. But if you want to do it free style without theme it is very very very okay.
Please tag me if you upload your #dubeldur work. It will be easier if you upload it on instagram. My instagram id is @winsoy
Thank you for reading!
Have fun #dubeldur -ing !!!
