I really don’t have an idea about who I’d like to talk to. So I write my daily story here. Because I think no one visit here. But it is okay if there is someone read the story.
Finally after a year I constantly make artworks of cosplayer, one of em asked me for a commission. And believe it or not, couple days before that, I talked to
my friend about an idea related to her.
So i think it is the best time to tell her about the idea. So I tell her the idea with a description about the commission.
And she hasn’t reply the email yet till now ( it is like more than a week later ).
I really understand about maybe she is busy or else, but this feeling is like “did I do something wrong? ” should I not did that?”
Very uncomfortable feeling. Like you texted a girl an she didn’t reply. haha,,that is sucks.
Maybe I’m too excited about it, and did something like an fokkin opportunist that she doesn’t like. I don’t know.
You know that feeling when your brain tell you not to do it, but the heart is like ” do it man! it would be fun, think about if it went well!! it would be awesome”
Then you do it.
Believe me, you should follow your brain. Well I’m not talk about a little thing that not need brain involved, but a big thing like a life changer thing.
Well, I don’t want to blame myself so much because actually I don’t know what would happen either if I tell about the idea or not.
Or maybe it is not about the idea maybe about my rate for the commission, or else or else, I don’t know.
Whatever it is, I have to keep focus on my goal.
If the commission finally won’t happen, that is mean the universe think that I’m not ready yet for such a thing.
I can’t just stop here, I think at some point I’m on the right track.
My decision in this case make is a big lesson for me. Very big one. I kinda disappointed with myself. But you know, they always say you only need one success to lead you to be the great one. Well this is not my time yet I guess. It is okay. Chin up!
But I will draw her again but not in a near time. The time I draw a same cosplayer is always different by at least a month.
I’ll do better next time. I always do.