So long not writing here. This week I decided to stay at home instead of spend my time at studio. Somehow when a place become a very comfort zone to me I cannot focus to make some works. So I try to came home and make some works and it worked! I’ve done 3 artworks and 18 pages of comic pages sketches!! As I remember I did make a lot of works when I at home. Maybe because the house is far away from the center of city ( that is make me so lazy to come out ) and the air is so chill in here. Yeah my parent’s house is on the top a hill, the neighbor has a cow! He is moo-ing in the middle of the night. It is Sunday and I’m not planning to go out anywhere, so maybe I’ll do another drawing today. I found a very good pictures of a cosplayer yesterday. Cheers!
Another stupid thing I did this month.
I just got a lil bit more money from my job. So I decided to buy that Metal Slug model kit.
The day I bought it, I don’t know why I can’t do the payment with my debit card. It said I entered a wrong pass number.
HOW THE FOK THAT WOULD HAPPEN?? I just take money from the ATM with that card and I entered the same pin.
So long story short I did buy the kit. ( yeah, I should go to the bank to take care about my card, but I haven’t go there )
The worst thing happened. One of the parts is broken because I asked my friend to snap it. It is a kit from china. You cannot hope the parts will connect smoothly like kit from japan.
The lesson are :
If you can’t do the payment that is mean the universe tried to tell you that you should not buy that stuff.
Now I don’t have money…..the next money will come after I finish a commission or maybe one of my class is over ( I run a manga class now!! I’ll tell the story about it later ).
But, I search money on my jeans. I found money!!! I could eat tomorrow!! I could buy gas for my scooter!! Not much money, still It is just enough for meals and gas.
The most hated kind of work for me as illustrator is layouting! ( is layouting a right word? I mean arrange the layout for a page or stuff ). I like to drawing stuff. A complicated robot, a beautiful girl, I even dont mind to draw a building, Im bad at drawing a building but I want to learn to do it. The problem with layouting is…it is not very challenging,,at all! Someone work at printing station can do it. Im not the best layouter but I can done that in no time,. I think everyone can done that in a very short time. I ‘d never had a mood to do it. The layouting is quick, but the time to find the mood to do it like almost forever.
Actually I don’t know what to write. I think I’m on that level that I don’t want to talk about anything happened to me to anybody. Nah, I still need someone to talk to. I found that chat bot , mitsuku ,is work well on smartphone.
The highlight for now is, work not getting lower ( I’m thankful for that ) but I’m getting lazy, like the opposite of months ago. Well I guess it is natural. So I don’t want to forced it, just enjoy the laziness.
The time I write something here is the time I need to talk to but dont know who to talked to.
I have many client projects now. So many client projects I cant think about Ghost Machines my personal project. Argh,, really miss my Ghost Machines.
I just bought some pencils. Derwent pencils. Really love em. I forget how to draw with pencil…actually I’d never really mastering my pencil skill.
the first person said Happy Birthday to me is my dad, and someone somewhere know me by the internet on Facebook. That guy who like to put Babymetal pic for his profile picture.
Im not feeling so well. It is because I ate too much yesterday. Usually I even do not eat enough while at studio. But at home I eat so fokkin a lot. My stomach is not good. I throw up. And every time I burp it feel funny,…no not funny but not good.
Anyway, I almost did nothing today. Just play LoL and a lil bit doing the job.
So it is a fasting month in here. We eat something in this time so we prepared to not eating and drinking until sunset. Suddenly people care about hungry and thirsty. I kinda glad to do this fasting thing. I’m not a religious guy, but I always do this every year. I don’t really care about eating and drinking, I mean when I’m busy with something, sometimes I need someone to remind me to eat or drink. So the key to do this is : you should be busy! Busy is fun. So if you have time to judge people for what they doing to other people in this fasting month then you are not a busy enough person. Get busy guys! Do something.
About a girl. So I want to get to know this girl from my article before. But she reads my message 2 days after I sent to her. She is busy playing game. I think…I don’t know. Despite that thing about her ( I don’t want to judge her, I know nothing about her ), I think my mind try to tell me that, I better find a girl who busy building her stairway to her dreams. Because at least – I think – she will have the same feeling about what I feel now. The obsession, the passion, the goal, the headache, the stress, the stupid dreams that we think we can reach it like the people reach theirs before us. So it will be a very great relationship.
I don’t know if have the kind of courage/confidence to make a move to that kind of girl. I wish I had. Or the wisest is I have make myself have that courage. It s all in the mind😀
Time to eat!