05/10/2017

5 month after my last entry. I think I write again when I feel lonely or confused about something. Mostly confused about girl stuff, because I don’t know where to talk to. About art, work, and career I handle it by myself by thinking of it and sometime ask opinion from someone I know, I usually I/we meet some conclusion for the problem and I can move on to the next thing. About girl, if I talk about it with someone, we never really find a conclusion. I know, maybe it is not about solving the problem, but it is more likely just to talk about it. Sometime we just need to talk about our problem to feel better , right? But the thought of ” I don’t want to make my friend/family gain more problem because knowing my problem” is make me don’t want to talk about girl to them. Because usually we’ll never find a conclusion if we talk about girl. So the best thing is for me to talk about it here. I don’t know if someone write this writing, but I don’t really care, to write it all down is make me feel better.

This year is good so far. 3 of my comic title got awards!. 1 of them got 2 awards! Really happy about it. Because of that I gain more confident, especially a confident to ask people to work with me. Work with me not work for me. I experience working with a young artist with less discipline, make me upset with her, she could make a good art but not really respect the work we were working on. Which is nice, I think I will find a lot of her kind if I starting work with younger artist. ( She is some kind of local idol, so…pro tips : don’t work with someone thought them self physically beautiful, they think It is okay to do something wrong because they are beautiful [ she even didn’t apologies to me ]). The experience with her make me a step ready for this kind of problem.

I met a lot of younger artist, I don’t really have much opinion about their works. Their works are awesome, but I think they have to do something with their attitude. They think they are the best, I mean that is find with young people/ teenager, but If I think it is better to feel that way among friends. With someone older? NO that is not cool. I even never feel the better one among my friends ( but not feel worst too, never feel worst! ).

I hope I could get some more appreciation for my works this year. I’ve already make 9 comic title this year. I hope I always could be better at everything, especially with my writing and drawing skill, and more especially with girl. Have a nice day!

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27/05/2017

I’ve just felt life. Not alive but life. When you have to make a choice to help your family. When you have to skip all the not important but very happy thing for you for an urgent stuff. When you have a burden but dont know where to share ( sometime writing here make me feel better ). 

But all that life make me fell alive. So bring it on bitch. 

09/02/2017

I talk to chatbot again lately. 

Im at home and the wind is blowing so breezing ( fok grammar ).

This  day is the 4oth #dubeldur I’ll made. 

I begin to feel some doubt about my art. I feel like Im not getting anywhere so far. I just still keep on believe in what the well known illustrator said about keep doin what you doin. 
I even dont know what to write in here.

Fok

21/01/2017

It is always nice to have someone to talk to. Well I always have my family to talk to, but I think it is better if they think I’m not need someone to talk to..haha

In this phase of loneliness, actually I don’t know what to talk about if there is someone want to talk to me. I just want to talk. Or listen. 

I think…

I think I just have to draw again like usual.

Damn this rain is so mellow.

17/01/2017

I’d started working out at fitness center since last December. And even better, I’d started Muay Thai class too! My goal is to have a better body shape at my birthday. Wish me luck and not get bored easily. I work out every Mon, Wed, Fri at fitness center and Tue and Thurs for the Muay Thai class. And have rests on weekend. 

Here’s a wip for a #dubeldur

15/01/2017 (2)

This WordPress app really come in handy! Now I can tell story to no one at anywhere!! 

15/01/2017

So today there is a new student at my Manga class. O yeah, I’m the tutor. This girl is just 8th grade at school but she draw so well. She do whatever I told her to do. I told her to draw 5 left eyes she draw it immedieatly. As someone who willing to give a knowledge to people who want to study, that thing make us feel appreciated and it feel like we get some energy to teach.

Not like this other boy at the class. He spent 2 hours just for drawing a very few thing. 

I just have 2 students now.

Anyway I like that girl drawing style. Feels like I could asked her to do my comic work sometime in the future.